Sunday, March 18, 2012

Why does it matter what others have to say?

Lots of times you will hear (or see me write) that I don't care if our opinions differ. I raise my children the best way for them, and for us. Our life is hard, very hard. My small children have tvs in their rooms (insert your gasp here...I'm sure), they eat whatever I can get them to, including McDonalds, they don't have set bedtimes; they go when I can get them down, and oh yeah, we are a blended family. My husband and I married when Elijah was just over 2 years old. 7 months later, (and I wasn't pregnant when we got married, she was just born 14 weeks early) our tiny, miracle baby girl had a traumatic entrance to the world. Lots of times, and many different people have told me that I make these things up for attention. That for some reason, my life isn't complicated enough without adding to it. For the last week, I deactivated my Facebook page, and shut down my computer. The things people were saying got to be too much, and quite frankly I don't HAVE to deal with it. I got numerous text messages and calls from genuine friends, worried about why I disappeared from cyber space. Some were worried that things at home went bad, that the kids were sick, or that I had just had enough. The latter was true. "Friends" hadn't really been friends at all, really just watching as I struggled through life. Never asking how I was, never caring that I WAS struggling. I got multiple messages via PM on Facebook (because they couldn't dare face me in the public), saying that I was fake, my children were fake, that I made my life up for attention. Ok. Right. Because apparently people do that? Anyone that knows me knows that I have a lot going on, that a lot of times I wish That I didn't have to deal with any of this. Would I change any of my children for ANYTHING? Hell no. I love my kids, and most of the time, I love my life. What I don't love however, is the Constant negativity. I dont like people and the way they act. I rarely ever let anyone get to me, but sometimes they do. When you see my Facebook page deactivated and the blog not going anywhere...someone has probably got to me. I'm probably upset and I would rather leave cyber space than say what I'd love to say. With that, I will say this. Everyone has their right to their own opinion, they are allowed to say what they want...but when it comes to the point of hurting someone else, they should keep their big mouths shut! E.

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