That rut that never ends...and milestones

I've been thinking for a few days about things going on around my house. To be honest, it's quite crazy. Being off during the week has really given me time to see things that need to be done, or things I should probably get done. We moved into our house 4 months ago, but it seems like I haven't unpacked anything! I have sent nearly 50 bags (no joke!!!!) to the Special Olympics bin. We lost a lot of space when we moved, and I still am trying to find a home for the things that haven't got unpacked. We put up ceiling fans and freed up that space in our closet. Anytime I go to the thrift store I take at LEAST that much out of whomever's closet I have bought for. I rearranged the top section of Elijah's closet and put away all the tons of diapers for this month. I have tried to keep up on the laundry but honestly...it's a never-ending job. I do multiple loads a day and still have left overs that haven't got done. And then, I have a pretty down day...for whatever reason...and BAMMMM!!! Smacked right. in. the. face! I try to be nice to everyone possible. I try to help whoever I can...I try to give advice and I definitely try to be the best mother I can be. Whenever I get a message from another mom (or family member), I try to be as comforting as I can. I try to reassure that whatever they're going through will probably pass. Then I sometimes get messages that AREN'T nice...ones that I really wish I hadn't got. Like the ones from last night for instance. Let me just say...again...if you are going to send me messages, please have the guts to do it with your name attached. I recently took a cyber break because of this crap. The messages I got last night were not only anonymous, but they were outright MEAN. I can't imagine, as an adult, telling another adult that they should "end their life so that everyone else can stop suffering." Really!? Anyways, the next message I get like this will end this blog, my facebook page, and everything cyber for me. Please realize that I NEED this support. I NEED the people I converse with. I need everyone that I interact with, (or don't, I don't really know who sent these latest messages), and I will not tolerate anymore of this. Moving on. Tomorrow marks 4 years since I married my husband. Totally unbelievable that he survived this long! :) And today was the first day RaeLynne survived more than 8 hours in big girl panties! If she wouldn't have slept so long, she may have been able to make it to the bathroom. She came out of her room crying that she "tried really hard to hold it, but just couldn't..." I felt so bad for her. She really wants this! This weekend is Easter. I will be taking a cyber break after Friday night for the weekend. Anyone that needs me can contact me via phone. Hope you all have a great weekend! E.